make me reliant

Tonight I am pleading to be taken back to the moment where I first learned your face, your love, and your radical acceptance. Help me experience our relationship of brotherly love (I think), and friendship, as it seems my well of relationship has run dry. 

You. The first one who understood me, who helped me understand that I could be understood. Help me understand as you did. Help me live as you do, spiritually and physically. You know where I struggle, my temporary and permanent crosses, insecurities, and deficiencies. 

Allow me to see just a glimpse of the beauty that supposedly comes with radical acceptance of myself and whatever higher plan there may be for my life. I have always needed a compass, now more than ever. Make me reliant on you, just as I have been. Help me see no one but you (if that is what you want I guess). Take me and form me to be fully dependent on you. I am tired and feel so lost. Salvation is unattainable without it. 

-s

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